Monday, August 31, 2009♥
	Happy Teachers' Day!! :D this year will be the last year celebrating tchers day in chung cheng, kinda sad T^T todays performance like not much kick but its still great nonetheless! i like the finale, its so damn cute and funny!! haix this year didnt go back kcp again, felt very bad and guilty.. do you have to treat me so coldly? okay i admit it was my fault in the past but its already been for so long so why this treatment towards me? if you think i dont give a shyt about it, you.re so wrong.. imma telling you now, it still matters to me. after that incident your change in attitude is so much! you ignored me and so on and so forth in the beginning, and now recently although you talk but you sound as if you.re not very willing to, if you.re not then forget it lah, as if i.ll kneel down and beg you to talk to me, i jus wanted us to be like in the past, and you acted like as if i have some evil motive, dont want talk then dont talk lah! last time still say until so nice, what ily and all sorts, and now you give me this attitude for no stupid reason, i promise i wont talk to you anymore, since you dont care why should i, luckily i didnt go back today ah going crazy already!! i jus cant stand losing! damn it and now everyones telling and asking me about it, what do you want me to say 我只是想跟你说话, 这样也不行吗 Blogged @ 7:27 PM

	Wednesday, August 26, 2009♥
	suddenly i feel very turned off, very lousy, as if the whole world is against me.. 260809 is definitely not my day, i cut my toe against the edge of the wall and it hurts! the cut was deep and it keeps bleeding, ouchy! alright firstly i apologise on my behalf, i admit i was wrong to complain about you to others, but i dont agree with what you said to me this morning. its really unfair to me, cos its not like i acted kind infront of you and stabbed you in the back, i already showed my discontent very clearly but you did not seem to get it, besides i did not go around telling people about it, i only told maryann they all cos they knew about it, and the others knew about it when we were talking in class, i did not deliberately tell them, if you are not happy that i told vanessa about it, im sorry, i jus felt damn pissed off and wanted to say it out, this i apologise. i.ve already apologised on my behalf, what about you? i was really appalled by your behavior and everything, dont you have any manners at all? and you dare come tell me that this morning, clearly implying that i was a two-headed snake and you thought i couldnt get it. if you still think you have done nothing wrong, then forget it, theres no point in me saying anything cos you have your own reasons to whatever me or my friends say, so jus leave it im very tired, i feel like giving up, i feel disgusted with humans behaviour, i feel disgusted with the ugliness of their characters, i feel disgusted of how one can put all the blame on the other party when it is not solely one partys fault, i feel disgusted by the evil and cruelty of the world jus stop it stop it stop it!! and to you, my name is suying!!! not his name!!! we are totally two different individuals from two different classes, so please!!! ah why havnt stop yet.. Blogged @ 10:30 PM

	Sunday, August 23, 2009♥
	its 3 now and im still awake.. jus finished mugging for ss on the theme of understanding governance, didnt really do much today, jus one chem paper and some qns from amath paper 1, and i referred to the txbk for like so many qns, and i took a long long time to complete. suddenly i feel very scared, im not prepared for prelimTwo, im not prepared for Os either, can i jus stop the clock from ticking for the time being, i wish i had more time, i wish i hadnt played that much, i wish i hadnt been so bothered by it, i wish i wish i wish.. have to wake up soon at 7 to wash up, do some papers and then get ready for tuition imma tired, yawns jus wanna steal a single moment outta your busy day:) Blogged @ 3:04 AM

	Friday, August 21, 2009♥
	oral is.. finally over! and since its already over, i doubt saying anything would change the results right, so i guess no need say so much lah, but im really glad that its finally over! yaye:DD alright oral is over and i.ve one less burden now, so from now onwards its really studying for prelimTwo and of cos not forgetting the big thing, Os, wanna know how soon it is? 4more days to prelimTwo and 65 more days to Os *gasps!* "if its not yours, it will never be yours no matter how much you are obsessed with it, but if its yours, it will always be yours no matter how often you let it go" Blogged @ 9:12 PM

	Thursday, August 20, 2009♥
	okay im getting very freaked out now, tmr, yes tmr, im having my Os eng oral and i havnt really prepared for it yet! alright i know you people will be thinking whats there to prepare for oral, i used to share the same sentiments but now i beg to differ, conversation qns would be on society and if you have no substance, you.re dead, but what really freaked me out the most was that everyday when my friends tell me about the qns, i would be thinking 'omg why so difficult' (except for day2) but the next day ms chua would come into class and say "ytd the qns was ... so easy right?" and i would be wondering whats wrong with me, and then i thought cos i had so substance thats why i wasnt able to think so much, however thinking about the qns for awhile made me feel that quite a number of points could be brought up, but during oral i dont have time to spare, i mus think on the spot and then blabber out all my stupid and silly answers, omg im feeling so damn scared now!! chris's words gave me some encouragement and boosted my confidence no doubt, but prelim is different from Os!! i wont be given the pictures and passages to prepare, and i.ve really no confidence i can get an A for it tmr.. and i would definitely be trembling tmr, wo bu yao wo bu yao wo bu yaoT^T wow what a lengthy paragraph, i wish i could jus talk like that during oral tmr! if only i really could.. why are human beings so complicated? i wish i could jus read their mind and know what they.re thinking Labels: im scared Blogged @ 11:06 PM

	Tuesday, August 18, 2009♥
	不笑就等于不高兴, 不笑就等于生气吗? 我有时也想做自己的事情, 而且也不想打扰你们说话, 这就叫做不合群吗? 我看起来很好欺负吗? 说我你们很高兴, 很痛快吗? 有时候我真的很想大骂了然后一走了之, 但是我却不能这么做, 我不想把关系搞疆, 以后连朋友也没有得做了.. 所以我一直忍一直忍, 就算很生气的时候也只好安静地做自己的事情, 但却被你们说不合群.. 这样对我公平吗? 在你笑别人之前, 是否可以考虑一下别人的感受才做出如此不礼貌的举动? 你的动作已经让我明白你根本没有把我当你的朋友.. 对于这些我感到很无奈很伤心.. im not pinpointing anyone, i jus wanna write out what i really feel, since you dont even treat me as a friend, i dont see the need to treat you like one anymore, i think i understand what they meant when they told me about you i dont like copycats, why are you always copying me why why why. Blogged @ 8:17 PM

	Monday, August 17, 2009♥
	i had a traumatic experience today! this girl jus came up to my table and started eating my food, oh and thats not all, when she finished she told me "wo zui xin shang ni zhe zhong ren" and the worst is i didnt quite get what she meant and i nodded my head and said "xie xie", and then she said "wo chi bao le, na ge spoon ni hai yao mah?" alright that totally freaked me out! i had the support of the whole class, and yifan and liling they all really helped me alot haha. traumatic.. scared until when she talked to me i scaredT^T haix haix whats with me? i dunno what im thinking of, i dunno what im doing either, how come it seems like you understand me more than i do? you jus know when to say the right words, when to do the right things, so that i.ll fall back into you once again, you promised me that, i hope you have not forgotten, i know you havnt:D ily<3! Blogged @ 9:07 PM

	Friday, August 14, 2009♥
	如果这是你所谓的爱, 那我宁可不要 you were jus making use of me arent you, i thought everything was true until jus now i found out that everything was jus a fraud, but you are pro, i did not realise in the very first place and played with you, after seeing that it totally turned me off and pissed me off, i knew it, you are forever like this, what a fool i.ve been when i thought you would change, what a joke Blogged @ 9:39 PM

	Monday, August 10, 2009♥
	i dunno what happen to the videos, jus make do with it kay? went to watch fireworks with jiayi ytd, it was awesome!:D there was alot of people as expected and guess who were the ones blocking my view? not tall tall people, but small small kids who were sitting on their daddy's shoulders.. ah>(! had dinner then went clarke quay to admire the night scenery and take pictures, but apparently we didnt take alotT^T alot of pubs there and clubbing clubbing!! heehz:D reached home quite late, at about 12plus and slept at 1plus after taking a shower, nightlife is awesome:DD! alright other photos are with jiayi, i.ll take from her soon and put it up asap:D andand twitter is fun!! im addicted!:D Labels: happy national day Blogged @ 8:24 PM

	Saturday, August 8, 2009♥
	i feel like im slowly losing my grip on you, i dont wanna let go, letting go is the last thing i would wanna do, but if it makes you happier, then perhaps.. Blogged @ 10:27 PM

	Friday, August 7, 2009♥
	yaye im sixteen le (huh so old!!) there are much more things i can do now! wait no actually theres only one more thing i can do > nc16 movies here i come!! hahaha:D kinda felt nothing special on my birthday, perhaps cos its a school day, and a very busy and stressed and stupid one infact cos i.ve ss test and i totally flunked itT^T well anyways thanks alot to those people who wish me happy bday and gave me presents! amanda, xueyi, irene, linjie, yinghui, baoyi, vanessa, jiahui, weitong, tw, yw, kor, claudia, jasmine, christine, kwangyi, zx, daryl, jeremy, josh, junwei, yuwei, nicholas, justin, asy, jaslyn, kenneth, benj, mm, felicia, jiayi, shawn, hubert, victoria, veronica, tay, minghsun, xavier, gabriel, denise, nicole, ruishi, melissa, tongen, jonathan, joyce, clarence, xiangxi, thankyou for the sms/tag/msn bday wishes!:D tw>flowers and earrings, jaslyn>a cute soft toy:), junwei&yuwei>perfume, justin>a big teddy! nicole>necklace, asy>watch, mm>cutecute soft toy, tongen>earrings, josh>cutie soft toy, xueyi>a very cute miniature of a meal:)!, vanessa>bear keychain. thankyou for all the presents people! im really quite touched lah, cos i didnt thought so many people would rmb my bday! heehz thanks once again people!! and thankyou tw:) today went with gen to jacks, ordered vodka lime, and.. i tell you its so damn horrible that i thought plain water tasted much better and sweeter than it. it was really horrible, the smell.. eww! thinking of it makes me wanna puke! right now im drinking wine and all of sudden the vodka lime taste came back to me, yucks! never gonna order it again i promise today almost half of my class didnt come school, heard that tchers were complaining.. but well its jus 3 lessons so doesnt really make much of a difference lah, i wish i could pon too but too bad i.ve parents who are too strict next time i want to have a bar counter in my house!:D i dont want talk to you le lah Blogged @ 6:57 PM

	Sunday, August 2, 2009♥
	for the upteenth time im feeling so damn stressed cos time is seriously running out and my revision is still not done yet! prelimTwo is in less than a month's time and Os is in less than 2months' time, woah i didnt knew it was so serious till i typed this out.. alright im simply a piece of dead meat in a pot of hot soup with ankle socks which i have to pull up if i still dont start my revisi0n! Blogged @ 9:18 AM