wow time passes so fast and its already may! yeah 3 more months to prelimTwo, 5 more months to Os, 7 more months to leaving school, 8 more months to getting back results! well guess what im not the least bit excited about it
yeah 5 months have passed and im still unable to get a good clear answer from my heart.. well people call this act leg on two boats, being unfaithful and whatever. and if i say i really treat both of them sincerely, who in the right state of mind would believe me.
and to parkway, we.ve had countless of fights and everything. remember fighting over the smallest things? and then after that we.re back to laughing again! yeah i know i took your love for granted, like taking advantage of your trust, knowing that you.ll forever be there.. and when i said break, do i really mean it? i guess not.. i know i cant survive without you, and yes in other words, you really mean alot to me. i get angry when you check my phone and everything, but at the end of the day, i.ll be like "hey he cares" and then i.ll be all smiling again. its been afew years now and we.ve been on and off for like how many times i cant rmb.. but yeah, chrystal, amanda they all are right. you, yes i mean you parkway, you are really very very great! till sometimes i feel that i.ve been very bad to you. i can still rmb vividly the times you cried right infront of me, you scared me! i didnt quite know what to do, but seeing you cry.. well i felt sad. and for the times you always come to meet me despite being tired after a whole day, yeah im touched actually. i know i always say i dont wanna meet you, but which girl wouldnt feel happy and touched that a boy is willing to wait for her everyday jus to spend that 30 to 60 mins time together..
i guess i.ve already made my decision. this new start has been for 6 months. and i hope there.ll be many more seconds minutes days weeks months and years to go!! and if you.re reading this, dont be touched to tears kay ^^