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    Sunday, May 31, 2009♥

    for goodness sake, wont you people please jus stop asking me about my results, after every debrief you people will be like 'eh suying, how much' and when i dont wanna say you people will go 'woah lao', and now you guys are going 'whats your class/level position' and when i say i dont wanna say you will go 'fine', do you want me to print out my report book and give each of you a copy, so that you.ll believe me how atrocious my reults are, and it will also help keep your mouths shut and save your saliva and mine too

    some people are jus so irritating
    like hey, i thank you for that

    movie and shopping with jiahui ytd at bugis, went to iluma which was pretty big and cold but there werent many shops which fascinated me, watched young victoria which was pretty nice and touching esp when prince albert saved queen victoria, proceeded to bugis street after that and had a big big shopping spree, i bought 3 cardigans and 3 tops, then finally went to bugis junction to jus walk around and enjoy the aircon, and now im officially declared bankrupt T^T

    i.ll only get scolded and cheated if i talk to you, so dear you, from this moment i.ll stop talking to you, and even if you ask me a question which i doubt you would, i would most probably not reply. i dont care! i dont give a shyt anymore! go ahead, go talk to your other friends! i dont give a shyt, i.ve had enough of you not talking to me already! i.ve also had enough of you giving me the cold shoulder as and when you like, playing with me like im your personal toy when you.re feeling bored and lonely

    yeah so get this clear right now, i dont wanna be your personal toy anymore from this moment on

    Blogged @ 6:59 PM

    Saturday, May 30, 2009♥

    decided to put back the tagboard cos im gonna exceed my sms limit if you guys continue sending me offline messages! haha but i wont be replying so often, in actual fact i havnt been replying for a very long time, hope you guys dont mind :)

    i.ve nothing to say to you, why wont you jus let me go please? whats the point of saying anything? it doesnt help at all does it? lets jus stop here, lets jus stop all connections please? it wont be fair to him isnt it? and we shouldnt even be talking anymore since last time, i mean whats there to talk about, theres nothing in common to talk about at all, so please jus let me go

    spare me..

    Blogged @ 2:18 AM

    Wednesday, May 27, 2009♥

    you know what, i am so sick of everything.

    everytime i go outta my classroom, i.ll have people from your class staring at me
    i dont even know you, and you stare at me

    well that sounds so logical.

    i dont owe you anything do i? or are you just hearing stuff from your friend that im some bitch who sends some stupid msg. and so you stared at me like i owe you something when the hell i dont even know you.

    yeah i know you wanna help your friend by staring at me?
    fine you win then.

    so every freaking chance we meet you people are gonna stare/look at me right? well thats just fine. i really hate going to school.

    when you walk, people just turn their freaking heads to look at you.
    hello? im a human being with insecurities too okay? like hi the reason you.re turning your head to look at me is because i look really bitchy and thats why you.re staring.

    well thanks thats really nice of you. just leave me alone will you? and im not wanting to boast about the fact that i get stared at. im sick of it man.

    hey. you know what im not even sucking up to you
    i hate to try to even suck up
    yeah, go on, say that im a bitchy flirt for sending that stupid msg
    okay fine
    so what
    talking to him > more people knowing about it > famous for being a bitch


    i finally understood truly what maryann meant when she said that, i really do now. shes right, when you.ve been through all types and varieties of shyt, you.re never gonna find yourself crying jus because someone said something which was really touching and whatsoever, you.ll jus go "wow what nice language, and whatsup with those people crying nonstop and even saying shyt" yeah thats how you.re going to react

    heartless? coldblooded? you can say whatever you like, thats your mouth and i cant stop you. i think i.ve changed, i wasnt like that in the past, kinship, friendship and relationship problems used to send my tears flowing down, but now i guess i.ve run out of tears, im still bothered by all these, but it seems like it lasted for perhaps only a day or two, and i dunno if this is good or not

    i wanted to scold, scold the f word out loud, but stopped in time. i was thinking..you wouldnt be feeling too good after doing so many evil deeds, yeah perhaps you dont feel anything at all, and is even feeling so damn shiok now, but i dont care, you do whatever you want, its none of my business, you jus get outta my life and i promise i.ll disappear from yours too

    Blogged @ 4:38 PM

    Tuesday, May 26, 2009♥

    who will still fail chem even after staying up late to study till 1plus in the morning? oh right, me
    who will still fail physics even after waking up at 2plus in the morning to study till its time to go school? oh right, me
    who will get 8/25 for social studies seq? oh right, me
    who promised to work hard and yet got such awesome marks for prelimOne? oh right, me

    you know what, forget all about prelimOne! im jus gonna start bucking up on prelimTwo, prelimOne is such a nightmare, i know im going to go for remedials during the second week of holidays, i know im going to have to break the news to my mom that she has to go meet the level mistress, i know im going to get a harsh scolding from parents, i know im going to disappoint my parents and teachers, yeah see and you.ll know how my life sucks

    oh and i met some interesting fellow today, or rather should i say interact with some interesting fellow, who claims to be somebody else, which i doubt its highly possible, well anyways it doesnt really affect my mood, jus thought it was pretty cool and decided to blog it here since i.ve nothing much to write about, wanted to typed out the msg at first, but better not, in case some people comes and then vomits out (hah!)

    Blogged @ 6:21 PM

    Monday, May 25, 2009♥

    yeah changed my blogskin to the previous one, thought this one looks nicer and simpler, decided to delete my tagboard and not put up any links, leave me offline messages instead!^^

    got back results, it was hell, i broke down on friday after knowing the large quantity of my l1r5, tried to control but to no avail, and i cried several rounds, till im feeling so tired and could not concentrate during amath.

    seriously, im not worth your tears, you can cry all you want, but at the end of the day, you.re jus gonna tire yourself out, and why should you harm your body for the sake of me, i dont deserve all that you.ve done for me, its too much and i cant accept it

    since i still cant make any decision between you two, i guess i.ll jus concentrate on my studies. i dont want any of you anymore, goodbye and goodluck

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    Blogged @ 4:31 PM

    Saturday, May 23, 2009♥

    i looked out of my window and saw a guy standing all alone, it was parkway i realised when i went down to have a look.

    i looked into his tired looking eyes, and asked why arent you home, why are you still here, he replied with a sigh i dont know, are you okay?

    Blogged @ 3:51 AM

    Sunday, May 17, 2009♥

    after a night of cold hard crying, i officially grew goldfish eye, whatever will i tell my mom, mom 'i cried because...i failed you as a daughter and that i swear im going to flunk my prelimOne', no that cant do who in the right mind would believe me.

    hang in there suying, its going to be over, its going to be over

    hang in there

    Blogged @ 2:05 PM

    Friday, May 15, 2009♥

    wow time passes so fast and its already may! yeah 3 more months to prelimTwo, 5 more months to Os, 7 more months to leaving school, 8 more months to getting back results! well guess what im not the least bit excited about it

    yeah 5 months have passed and im still unable to get a good clear answer from my heart.. well people call this act leg on two boats, being unfaithful and whatever. and if i say i really treat both of them sincerely, who in the right state of mind would believe me.

    and to parkway, we.ve had countless of fights and everything. remember fighting over the smallest things? and then after that we.re back to laughing again! yeah i know i took your love for granted, like taking advantage of your trust, knowing that you.ll forever be there.. and when i said break, do i really mean it? i guess not.. i know i cant survive without you, and yes in other words, you really mean alot to me. i get angry when you check my phone and everything, but at the end of the day, i.ll be like "hey he cares" and then i.ll be all smiling again. its been afew years now and we.ve been on and off for like how many times i cant rmb.. but yeah, chrystal, amanda they all are right. you, yes i mean you parkway, you are really very very great! till sometimes i feel that i.ve been very bad to you. i can still rmb vividly the times you cried right infront of me, you scared me! i didnt quite know what to do, but seeing you cry.. well i felt sad. and for the times you always come to meet me despite being tired after a whole day, yeah im touched actually. i know i always say i dont wanna meet you, but which girl wouldnt feel happy and touched that a boy is willing to wait for her everyday jus to spend that 30 to 60 mins time together..

    i guess i.ve already made my decision. this new start has been for 6 months. and i hope there.ll be many more seconds minutes days weeks months and years to go!! and if you.re reading this, dont be touched to tears kay ^^

    Blogged @ 3:43 AM