hello wello jello!
suddenly i feel so motivated to study, and thats why i wont be using com
for perhaps a week till the next weekend (?) haha.
i.ve been sorta slacking for like the past two weeks
and yeah, im starting to feel guilty cos i.ve not really done anything..
so, im gonna really seriously start studying real hard.
i finally know the true meaning of disappointment..
its like it was something i was so looking forward to, yet it turn its back on me
you broke your promise, yet again.. countless lies i get from you
countless disappointments too..
sorta used to it i guess.. perhaps im already numb le lah
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i try to be nice to everyone, esp my friends
but do you seriously think you.re a friend? or you treat me as one?
i.ve tolerated for like what.. 6plus months?!
and this year i started shouting at you. and you stop for awhile,
and start again almost immediately.
sometimes i really wish i could jus kick you and bash you up,
but i cant cos im in a school. what for get demerit point over someone like you?
you may act like this cos you have your own problems,
but which one of us doesnt have our own problems?
you like insulting people yeah? but you yourself cant even take jokes..
so, tell me.. is this fair?
i got only a merit for chi Os oral and you got a distinction, and what did you do?
you said "huh..you only got merit ah? i got distinction leh.aiyo.."
at that very moment, i wish i could kill you.
i know i didnt do well and im not as clever as you,
but since when have i insulted/critisized/suan (or whatever you call that) you?
you go and think about it lah. im tired of saying all this
everytime i go to school, the thing i dread most is having to face you
cos i have to tolerate and make sure i dont do anything rash.
in case you dunno, i dont have a good temper, infact i.ve a very bad one
so.. if one day i ever resort to violence, you can forget about me forgiving you
please get this clear>i.ll hate you
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and as im typing this post, theres a fire opposite my house
i think its in the so called open space there, no wonder so smelly..
then theres this siren. police car, ambulance or fire engine, i dunno which one lah
jus know its one of the three. unless total defence car comes along?
hahaha :D
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